Satan Sucks!!!!!

Hello readers. Since we last talked, a lot has happened. More than I could ever explain in one blog. More than I thought I could handle. I had an amazing amount of emotion this week. I went from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows. I went from the brink of killing myself to wondering if things could get any better. You get the picture. I have had a lot of comments from my last few blogs and I have to say that I have really enjoyed it. But I don’t blog just so I can tell you about my life. I tell you about my life so that it may help others on their journey. I have to be honest; I have had a lot of battles with Satan this week. He has absolutely tried to destroy me at every turn. He has ruined friendships, tried to cost me my job, tried to wreck my marriage, tried to drive a wedge between me and God, I could go on. But here I stand. I am still beaten and bruised. I am still reeling from the realizations I made two weeks ago. Well here comes Satan to knock me back down. They say Satan doesn’t bother the ones he already has, so I kind of feel honored. He is trying to absolutely destroy everything I hold dear. But I have something now that I didn’t have two weeks ago; the love of God. And as any Christian knows, or at least they should, our God wins. Satan has had my mind for longer than I can remember. I have tried in the past to give it to God, but I just wouldn’t. I was afraid that He wouldn’t treat it as good as I was . But then I had an epiphany and everything became clear. I could NEVER do with it what God was wanting to do. I can honestly say that if He didn’t have my mind and my heart, I would be behind bars or under the ground after this week. It has been that bad. Now there are those of you who are going to want to gossip and ask questions and I ask that you NEVER read my blog again. If you have a question, you can ask, but don’t expect a whole lot of answers. This is supposed to be a help to all of you and this is why. My marriage is better than it has been, EVER. We have things to work on, and we are just beginning the process, but it is so much better. I am getting a new beginning in my job. I am sleeping better. I love my kids more than I ever have, and have truly begun to enjoy hanging out with my family. I am praying a ton more than I ever have. I feel like I found a new best friend, except this one actually answers my prayers and provides miracles. I have always relied on humans, and I have to tell you, God is so much better. I love all of my friends, and will continue to rely on them, just in different ways. Now they get to just be my friends instead of my friends and my gods. I have discovered God now, and He provides me with the peace that I have been searching for for so long. The peace that passes all understanding. The peace that allows me to sleep at night and know that everything is going to be alright. I truly am praising Him in the midst of a storm, and it is awesome to see what is happening. So you know what? Satan can keep on trying, and I will fail from time to time, but Satan, if you are reading this, know this, YOU SUCK!!!! And you will NOT get ahold of my marriage, my mind, my anything ever again. Please continue to pray for me as I am human, and have to fight battles with my mind. Pray for my family, and most all, begin to pray for yourself and know that you are worth it. God wants a real, tangible relationship with you. God sent His son to die for all of us, and that means you.

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